It's been a long time without a word but now I have new life and a lot of words to say (write).
So it goes...
Last year I moved to London. A lot of things changed for me but the most important thing is that now I don't live every day like it's the same.
That's what I like about my life now.
Because before, when I was living in my country with my parents a normal and safe life, every day was the same and it was slowly killing me.
Like literally, I was having panic attacks almost every night and at the age of 22 I started to think about my death.
Change is good!
Don't run away from it!
You might be scared in the beginning but after that you won't regret it.
That's what I did and now I'm happy about my decision.
I'm not saying that every day here, in London, is like this perfect and beautiful moment. Not at all.
But I learned to cherish every moment. Every day. Even if it's a bad day, a miserable day or happy and amazing one.
It doesn't matter what kind of day I'm having as long as I'm panic attack free and I'm feeling alive.
|A cute little monkey that I found on my last day in Lincoln|
before I came to London.
In this post I would like to thank my dear ''friend'' who did this really shitty thing and because of him I'm living in London now.
I'm saying this with a big smile because I really mean it.
I know that the thing he did was awful and wrong and I couldn't even think of it for a long time but now that I forgive him I feel so much better.
I really appreciate the crappy thing you did to me because it made my life better and more interesting.
|A lot of foxes in London. |
You should be careful cause they're really cute.
So it goes...
I've met a lot of new people here and each one of them is unique and interesting.
I've learned couple of new things about myself as well.
And every day I'm finding out something new about my life.
So example, I found that I'm not a good cleaner but I'm very good bartender.
In the beginning when I came to London I did't have any money left in me.
And now is the time to thank to my big brother.
Because even if we were strangers most of my life, he was there when I needed him the most.
I'm really grateful to him and his friends because if it wasn't for them, I can't imagine what would happen to me here.
|The best roommates trio.|
For the first couple of months I was working as a house cleaner because I refused to change my look and believes.
Literally I choosed to clean toilets and stay true to myself than changing for a good job.
And after when, thank God, they fired me from my second agency I found better job in a restaurant chain as a runner.
It wasn't that good or anything but at least I wasn't cleaning toilets.
And they accepted me as I am.
That was good until I tried to be behind the bar in another restaurant from the same chain.
Not only the job was better and I really liked it there but the staff and the managers were wonderful and amazing. We even became a family.
So yeah, after 4 miserable months in London I finally found my place. For now.
It's even better than I expected it would be.
|I still miss my family and my friends every day.|
In the end, it doesn't matter how much shit you can take.
You should stay true to yourself and believe that one day it all will be better.
Not only you should never stop believing but you should never stop doing something
to make it better.
And here some photos from UK from my Instagram
|London, UK [My garden - the park behind my house]|
|London, UK [My street]|
|London, UK [Leicester Square - Light show]|
|London, UK [Marble Arch]|
|London, UK [Autumn]|
|The best gig in my life!|
P.S. STAY WEIRD!!!